Irrational Self​-​Analysis

by Ryan Wyness

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All songs written by Ryan Wyness from 2012-2014.

Recorded with Corn Mars Productions in Aberdeen, summer 2014.

All performances of vocals, acoustic guitars, bass guitars, drums, banjo, tambourine, keyboards/synths by Ryan Wyness.

Sample used in "Barophobia" is taken from the film Dumb & Dumber.

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released September 15, 2014

Thank you from the bottom of my heart in no order to mum (angel among humans), dad (my hero), Alana (sulky but strong), Bailey (I guess), the entire Wyness and Adams family, Jack Mearns, Tara Louise Baird (Bee), Rory Wemyss, Martin MacDonald, Richie Milne (Biscuithead), Kurt Butler, Grant Cooper, Forrestfire Productions, Martyn Schorn/Corn Mars Productions, Robb Nemo, One Up (RIP), Cafe Drummonds, Jameson whiskey, the bartender in Glasgow that pretty much started this whole cycle, all of the musicians in Aberdeen who support eachother and check out the shows/music. Anyone I've forgotten, much love!

Special thanks to you! Whether you bought, borrowed or stole this record, you're a part of the cycle, thanks!

"I'll strip the gauze for a rational self-analysis." - Hot Water Music

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Track Name: Barophobia
There's a pain at the core of my body,
that wipes any facial expression.
Caused by the nights of hard drinking,
to cure this crippling depression.
Track Name: Whiskey Lips
She sways side to side,
but not in time with the music.
I make these situations in my head,
where she turns around,
she clutches my shirt,
she pulls me towards her,
whispers in my ear;
"Dance with me and love me until the end."

She's not the one,
not the Sweetness I sang about before.
But, she pays me attention.
That's all I want and nothing more.
Nothing more.

We'll wake up tomorrow afternoon,
ashamed at what we've done.
I won't look at you,
and you won't tell your friends.
We'll never see eachother again,
but, that's okay.

She's not the one,
not the Sweetness I sang about before.
But, she pays me attention.
That's all I want and nothing more.
Nothing more.

She's not the one.
Track Name: Anhedonia
I'm all out of love.
My bridges have been burned.
The debris fell to the boats below.
I wish I'd been on a cruise that day.

Mixing vodka,
and whiskey again,
so I go blind,
I'll never have to see you again.

I told myself to be patient.
I told myself to wait.
I fell for her because she talked to me.
I fell for the bait.

I woke up alone today.
No love for to keep.
I thought I saw you in a dream.
I'll just go back to sleep.

My heart's snowed in in my chest.
Although, it's melting through.
It's burning through my ribcage,
and it's all because of you.

I told myself to be patient.
I told myself to wait.
I fell for her because she talked to me.
I fell for the bait.

Limbs like tree trunks.
Half-chopped and on fire.
Got a field growing on my face.
Like the one we used to roll around in.

I told myself to be patient.
I told myself to wait.
I fell for her because she talked to me.
I fell for the bait.

I can't feel my gums.
Slow, nonsensical words.
Another lonely drinking song,
everybody's heard.

I can't feel my teeth.
Stupid, fucked up words.
Another lonely drinking song,
I wrote about her.
Track Name: Cake & Cunnilingus
Coming home and laying my head,
on the pile of underwear on my bed.
Too tired to care.
Drifting off into sleep in the afternoon.
Waking up in the morning that comes too soon.
Waking bright eyed is rare.

I'm wearing myself out.
My mind is losing it's mind.
Got time to spare,
but, no time to bide.
It's like I'm going everywhere,
but, not getting anywhere.
Too tired to care.

I wrote the words to this song,
in my filthiest handwriting.
Eyes half-open,
some furious nail-biting.
Hair is on my chin,
like the froth of a beer.
Clothes are getting small,
and my skin is far from clear.

I'm full of fun but can't use it.

I'm feeling like a snare,
that's been riddled in dents.
But, the drummer can't pay,
to fix me or his rent.
Self pity.
All I need is a break,
but, the show's about to start.
Maybe they won't notice,
if I miss my part.
So shitty.


I'm wearing myself out.
My mind is losing it's mind.
Got time to spare,
but, no time to bide.
It's like I'm going everywhere,
but, not getting anywhere.
Too tired to care.

I wrote the words to this song,
in my filthiest handwriting.
Eyes half-open,
some furious nail-biting.
Hair is on my chin,
like the froth of a beer.
Clothes are getting small,
and my skin is far from clear.

I'm full of fun but can't use it.

Get me a pillow and a blanket.
Don't bother with the boat of dreams,
beacuse I think we sank it.
Track Name: Writings From A Peasant To A Goddess
If there ever was a love song written,
as strong as Cupid;s arrow,
I'd write it, drunk on affection,
and dedicate every word to you.
If I wrote it well enough,
you'd trip head over heels,
and fall straight into love with me.
And, I'd be waiting with open arms,
ready and willing to catch you.

If there ever was a melody sung,
as pretty as your eyes and lips,
I'd sing it with as much justice as I could,
and cry every note to you.
If I sung it smoothly enough,
you'd be blinded by love.
And, I would guide you all the way,
to the beacon that is my heart.
Ready and willing to love you.

Look at the moon,
so adventurous and beautiful.
Shining bright and giving light to the world.
Look at that lone star,
so small and insignificant.
Admiring the moon and making her look gorgeous.
One night, you and I,
will look to the night sky,
and realise it's just a reflection of us.

The light you give my world,
will never burn out.
My adoration for you,
will stay without a doubt.

Let me be the song,
you've always wanted to hear.
Let me sing the tune,
that will always please your ears.
Let me be the star,
that shines brightest for you.
Let me be the one,
that's allowed to hold you.
Track Name: Zugzwang
These fucking wheels just keep on turning,
and the metal stays intact.
Even though that's not what I want.
Quite the opposite, in fact,
would make my day.

But, I know I'll never do it.
I've got so much to leave behind.
Even though I'm never good enough,
and she'll never be mine.
So, what's the point?

I just need that feeling back.
Throw my heart around the cul-de-sac.

I know you need someone too.
You hate me because I love you.
Trust me to darken the tone.
Stop me from being alone.

Got a crush on the wrong people.
Girls I'll never truly love.
They'll never love me back.
I'm sick of thinking of this stuff.
You clog my mind.

Don't know why I've woken up today,
I spent another day in bed.
Paralyzed, no motivation.
Empty heart and heavy head.
I am happy in my dreams.

I just need that feeling back.
Drink from the fountain and not the wine rack.

I know you need someone too.
You hate me because I love you.
Trust me to darken the tone.
Stop me from being alone.

I just need a girl as broken as me.
I'm staying low, my fear of flying keeps,
my head out of the clouds,
I'm down here where I belong.
I can't tell you how I feel,
so, I'll sing it in a song.
I spend all my lonely evenings,
drowning in a dram.
I can't be alone forever.
Read it in my palm.

I know you need someone too.
You hate me because I love you.
Trust me to darken the tone.
Stop me from being alone.
Track Name: Broken Fingers
I pick up these six strings,
and I play you a love song.
It sounds like I have broken fingers,
and I got the lyrics wrong.

I pour my heart out to you,
but, you don't understand.
You'll never want to be with me.
You'll never hold my hand.

I got the biggest crush on you.
My heart is swelling and it's beating through.
I just want you to notice me.
Remember my name and carve it into a tree.

I know I'm a bag of meat,
my edges are so rough.
But, I guess, in self defense,
it's more of me to love.

I'm not saying,
that I want you in my bed.
I'd rather watch you dance tonight,
and talk all night instead.

I got the biggest crush on you.
My heart is swelling and it's beating through.
I just want you to notice me.
Remember my name and carve it into a tree.

I think you said my name once,
didn't know how to react.
I believe you brushed my arm once,
I know that for a fact.
I think you looked my way once,
that's the way it seemed.
I hope you'll try to kiss me once,
and true becomes my dream.

I got the biggest crush on you.
My heart is swelling and it's beating through.
I just want you to notice me.
Remember my name and kiss me.

I got the biggest crush on you.
My heart is swelling and it's beating through.
I just want you to notice me.
Remember my name and carve it into a tree.
Track Name: Beerly Beloved
I've got my Budweiser belly,
my best buds and beats.
I'm ready to get up,
and back on my feet.

I'm kicking this world,
like my addiction to love.
I don't need it no more.
Man, I'm just waking up.

I'm back for the good times,
the positive mood.
I wanna be happy,
for now and for good.

I've got these six strings,
they never leave me alone.
Though I'm not an expert,
I feel right at home.

You were getting sick,
and I was getting tired.
But, now we get on,
like a house catching fire.

The residents are still,
asleep in their beds.
I'm certain, very soon,
that they'll burn up and be dead.

We'll watch as the smoke,
burns on up to the skies.
Come back down as rain,
and give our tears a disguise.

The tears that we cry,
will be happy and drunk.
We dance to the sunrise,
like we don't give a fuck.

We're brothers in arms,
yeah, we're young and we're free.
As stupid and reckless,
as nobodies can be.

So, pass me a beer,
let the bad times pass.
We'll drink until we can't no more.
Treat every night like it's our last.

Singing "woah!"